I am lounging on the couch right now while JJ is watching football. I LOVE days like this. Lazy Sundays with crock pot chili cooking and football on tv. It is so comforting. I really need a comforting day today.
There is something really bothering me. Have you guys read about the Yale student that disappeared? She was only 24 and was supposed to be getting married today. There is video of her walking into a Yale lab and she just never came out. Her wallet, keys and personal items were found in her office so police did not think she ran away. Which means someone hurt her. I am not sure why this story is affecting me so much. The news is always filled with horrible stories and unfortunately, I am somewhat desensitized. However, this poor girl is really getting to me. I can't get it out of my head. Maybe it is because she was the same age as me and was just about to be married. I just can't imagine what her family and fiance are going through right now.
It has really put things into perspective for me. I have been so stressed about all the little wedding details. Why? Why am I wasting time and energy on something so small and insignificant? I should be counting my blessings all day, every day. I am getting married. I am ALIVE and healthy. I have an amazing family. Nothing else should matter. I don't care if the wedding details aren't exactly what I had in mind. I don't care that I still have a lot of work to do. I am so lucky to be marrying the most amazing man I have ever met. I am so so lucky.