Tuesday, March 23, 2010


My mom came to visit me last week. Well actually, she flew in from Chicago on Wednesday, March 10. I took off Thursday, Friday and Monday to hang out with her. She stayed until Saturday, March 20. I wonder if I will ever get used to living so far from her. Everytime we visit each other, I cry for days after we part ways again. Does anyone else have that problem? I feel like I am still 5 years old when it comes to missing my parents. Please tell me I am normal.

In other news, I hate my job. Like, I really hate it you guys. I love the company I work for, I (usually) like my coworkers, I have a kick ass little office and I get to work with JJ. But my job sucks. I am constantly bored out of my mind and for some reason that is more tiring that being busy. After a day of being bored, I will go home with a headache and will be completely exhausted. On the rare occasion that I am busy, I go home feeling energized and like I actually have value.

I don't want to leave my job because I have great benefits and really don't want to start trying to find something new in this crazy economy. Plus, when JJ and I decide to have kids, I am planning on being a stay at home mom. The last thing I want to do is start over with a new company, only to quit after a year or less because I am staying home with my kids.

So everyday I struggle to find a purpose. I try so hard to find something to do so I am not miserable all day. Some days I can find enough to keep me occupied, but most days I am completely bored. Today is one of those days. Come on 4:30! Hurry up and get here already!


That Kind of Girl said...

Dude, I completely agree with you that sitting around wasting time is exhausting! Why the frig is that?! I had a temp job for about a month wherein there was literally nothing for me to do but sit and play on the computer all day, but weirdly, I came home with an exhaustion headache every day -- even though had I been doing the same thing at home, I'd feel fine!

Gilsner said...

Oh, hon, I can completely relate to the job thing. It's so tough. It's tough to not enjoy where you are... it's tough to consider leaving. I feel your pain. Sadly, I have no solution except this... focus on the next year, knowing it's not forever. Put your downtime towards brainstorming for Roses & Rings and all the wonderful things the next few years will bring! *hugs*

Jess said...

I'm sharing your pain, including the 4.30 count down!

It sucks being so bored but as this is my first permanent job I can't leave it. Just wish I could get busy!

It's crazy we're living pretty much parallel lives!

Mrs T said...

Being bored at work is the worst. Sorry it's sucky at the moment.

Totally feeling you on the missing parents thing. It's so hard to live far away. I hope when we have kids they all live close when they are grown up.